U were saying???

I learnt how to phase out in 2nd semester... the reason being that I didnt attend anything in my 1st semester at college... nothing, nil, nada, zilch... i guess u get the point... so basically even though i rarely attend anything in college, i tend to phase out whatever is happening around... i believe i have finally mastered the art... i look suitably interested but in my mind i tend to venture into another world... earlier it was restricted to lectures... maybe college has taken over so much of my time that i find myself tuning out while having conversations... and i see these movies where characters tune in and out at will and i feel myself increasingly becoming like that... im not apathetic, its just that i despise monotony... repetition bores the hell out of me... and sometimes i find conversations so boring that i enter into my own world... the depths of my subconscious... the formula is always the same... look like ur interested, keep saying things like umm, uh-huh, yup, seriously!! et cetera and u should be just fine..
and it woprks the other way too.. sometimes i phase out when im the one doing the talking... one minute i say something and the next minute i completely blank out on where the conversation was headed... and i also tend to jump back and forth unexpectedly and for short durations!!... its weird... but it comes in handy in classes... too bad i dont even attend 10% of my classes to put my skills to use!!.. :D
maybe it also has something to do with a space constraint... too many thoughts.. too little space to store most of them!!!.. my head is so full of useless knowledge that i possibly cant store any new thoughts... if only i had Dumbledore's Pensieve!!!...

What Are We Running After??

heard these lines after a long time and it just left me wondering... this one hit the nail on the head... its been stuck in my head ever since... the beauty of these lines!!!... its from the 1957 hit "Pyaasa"...

"Ye Mahalon, ye Takhton, ye Taajon ki Duniya,
Ye Insaan ke Dushman, Samaajon ki Duniya,
Ye Daulat ke Bhookhe, Riwaazon ki Duniya,
Ye Duniya agar mil bhi jaaye, toh kya hai?"

Listen to this here...

here's the translation:-
This world of palaces, thrones and crowns,
This world of societies that hates humanity,
This world that hungers for nothing but wealth,
Even if one obtains this world, so what?

aaarrghhh!!!!

i realized that my writers block just surfaces when im in front of a monitor... so i started making notes on my phone about things i wanted to blog about or was feeling at a particular moment... but considering my attention span i now have about 8-10 unfinished blog entries on my phone... and just the day i finished a post i cant find my phone... i put it somewhere here but it will take a long time to search through this mess.. yes i put it on silent so calling wont help... now i have to wait another day to make a post...
and i haven't been regular because i got my hands on the season 3 of 24 (yes i know it came out ages ago but whatever!!!) and i just had to finish it once i started it... am finally done but now i have season 4 staring me in the face... life is so tough... im going to have to make a tough decision come monday... its going to sound very mundane but it is confusing... "Prison Break" season 3 airs on mondays as will the third season of "how i met your mother" along with the second season of "heroes"!!!... what the hell am i going to download first??... how can people expect me to make a decision like that... probably will split the responsibility with a couple of friends so we all can download different sitcoms and then get it in pen drives the next day... but still...
also have around 80 movies on my computer that i haven't watched yet... so much of backlog and so little time... ohh and i guess i have 3 projects due in college but thats the least of my worries right now!!!...

Tagged!!!

got tagged into doing this by Raaji... here goes...



Stolen a Car: Nope... and may i suggest that anyone who has, should probably not own up to it because u never know who's reading ur blog!!!..

Been In Love: Ahh... I have to literally stop myself from falling in love... Its weird that I tend to fall in and out of love... but maybe im still not sure if it was love or something else..

Been in a Fist Fight: YES!!!.. everyday for 14 years till my brother moved to college!!..

Had Feelings for Someone Who Didn’t Have Them Back? Hasn't everybody??.. im still to meet someone who can answer a no to this question..

Been to Canada? Nope.. been to the States.. the Niagara Falls.. but never inside the border..

Purposefully Set a Part of Yourself on Fire? No.. though once i tried burning a nail after cutting it.. just out of curiosity.. :P

Taken Pain Killers? Yes, occasionally.. but i have a pretty strong immune system *touchwood* so that takes care of any medicines to take..

Been Lonely? I guess I have... and i dont like it... i dont mind aloneness... but loneliness sucks!!!

Felt an Earthquake? yes.. and it was kinda cool... :-P

Been Misunderstood? has a fish ever been in water??.. do people find the sound of scratching nails on a blackboard irritating??.. the answer is YES!!.. in CAPITALS.

Been in a Car Accident? been in a bike accident if that counts... a gypsy crashed into a friends bike and sent both him and me flying on the road.. dont remember much but from what i hear it was quite a day!!.. both of us were lucky considering that it could have been quite deadly..

Walked the Streets Drunk? The Beer Crawl, Munich.. June '07.. the most awesome time that i dont recollect!!.. apparently i was yelling at the top of my lungs... again, no recollection!!..

Swum in the Ocean? its the best thing... EVER!!!.. i love the freedom it provides... no boundaries.. just water..


apparently most of u have been tagged with this so i tag anyone who hasnt done this yet...

Unconditional Love

UNCONDITIONAL LOVE


Sitting alone in the dark,
As time drags along,
Im thinking about you,
And everything that went wrong.

Its just not your fault,
That I am in love with you,
And just because I feel that way,
Is no reason you should too.

'Coz love is all about giving,
Without expecting in return,
Its just an unconditional feeling,
There are no specific terms.

No one knows the depth of my feelings,
Its just so strong that even Im not sure,
Cant explain it even if I try,
Its just so complicated yet so pure.

But something you'll never know about me,
Is just how deeply for you I care,
The agony of loving someone so much,
That it hurts far more than I can bear.

P.S.- Even though i do have internals going on in college, the absence of posts is solely due to procrastination... like i was even going to TRY to study!!.. the only constructive thing i did was to check every single cd/dvd that i own(around 200) to know what data i had and what exactly was taking up so much of space... that's how i found poems i had written ages ago...