Enough with the whining... already!!!

sometimes i wonder when did my mind become so corrupt??... when did i lose the innocence of laughing on a nice clean joke... now all my jokes have hidden meanings... the first reaction when someone says something is to imagine all possible dirty interpretations... i was never the kind who got all the dirty jokes but now i laugh even before most guys can think of the 'other' meaning... is it wrong for a girl to understand things too much... its pretty obvious and usually hits bulls eye!!!.. just because i get all sexual jokes doesnt make me loose!!.. it just means i dont pretend if i understand things and my IQ isnt as low!!!.. maybe i dont live in an open enough society where a girl can be as tough as a guy without being termed fast.. maybe guys see it as a threat.. maybe they dont have the balls to accept a girl with guts and a cheeky tongue.. most people dont bother really knowing u.. even 'friends'.. everyone judges u for who they think u r... stupid hypocrites!!!..

i just realized that most of my posts thesedays have something to do with people judging me all the time and my being frustrated with those very people... in my defence its my blog and that is exactly what im going through!!!... i just feel a little abandoned.. its one of those days when nothing goes wrong but nothing really goes right either.. i feel frustrated with nothing happening... its driving me up the wall.. its forcing me to think and usually not very pleasant thoughts.. it makes me feel lonely and i hate the mere thought of it.. the desire to be accepted... im too much of an outcast already though most of the times i dont bother about it... but i guess i dont always like to take the road less travelled... fear of rejection??.. maybe.. but mostly i hate feeling distant from the ones i care about... finally im getting this out of my system... no more whining about this!!!... here's to better days!!.. :)