... ULTIMATELY???

*****: what you wanna do in life..ultimately? vague question i know..u cn answer later..

Me: ultimately as in??... give me an example??... like wht do u want to do ultimately

*****: hmm....say..when u are done with all the "cash getting"

Me: i just want to travel arnd the world at my whim and just take off without thinking twice... u know like if i feel like going backpacking in europe i just leave right now with just my passport and nothing else... i can buy wht i need whenever i need it... and i wanna be with someone who feels the same way abt stuff with no planning into stuff and just take off wen the mood gets u... thts my idea of being settled with someone in life... just enjoy each others company and be compatible enough to understand even if i want to go off alone... strange huh??... well i guess thts wht i want... and maybe to buy a beach house in malibu!!!!... and laze in the sun all day!!!... BLISS!!!

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that was the first thing tht came to my mind... and i know tht even though its the first time ive thought abt this, it definitely wont be the last... i would love to travel like that... maybe i should rethink my choice of career... engineering is BORING...

darkness
solitude
rain
hurt
storm
tears
anger
pain
heartbreak
iris by goo goo dolls
despair
locked
destruction
suffocated
death


PEACE!!!

Get Me Outta Here

sometimes i write poetry when the mood gets to me... wrote this one sometime back... isnt my best piece but its something tht i feel like right now!!!...


GET ME OUTTA HERE

sitting in an empty room
i wanna get outta here
the walls r closing in on me
i cant get outta here

confined space
undefined maze
someone get me outta here

got a lot on my mind
but have no idea what im contemplating
its hard for me to think straight
i feel like im suffocating

clenched fists
slashed wrists
someone get me outta here

surrounded by dust and ashes
papers strewn across the floor
i dont see any windows
there doesnt seem to be a door

fading light
losing sight
someone get me outta here...
outta here...
outta here...
get me outta my own world!!!

it seems that things i dont do are my fault too!!!... well im sorry for things i didnt do... im sorry i didnt call u up... im sorry if i thought u wanted some time... im sorry if u think i did u wrong... im sorry if u think i dont value u... im sorry if i never could make u understand how much u meant to me... im sorry that u doubt how i feel about u... im sorry i didnt make sure u knew u were one of my best frnds... i know we promised each other that we dont need formalities like thank u and sorry in our frndship... but thts the way u were on the phone today... we speak after almost a month and all u can do is scream at me and tell me that i didnt want to keep in touch... well im SORRY for it and a lot more!!!... but most of all im just sorry that neither of us could understand the other like we thought we did!!!...

Jaane kya chahe mann baavra,
akhiyan mere saawan chala.

thats exactly how i feel right now!!!!....

Im BACK!!!

Im back after a hiatus!!!... cant say that im sorry... had a ball these last ten days!!!... Holi was fun!!... and also the fact that i played it on thursday, friday and sunday!!!... came home from college on thursday all silver!!!... then friday i came back home green.. thanx to college friends again!!!... and finally on sunday played holi with cousins.. came back home red/maroon!!... 3 different days... 3 different colours!!! awesome fun though its so tiresome to wash off all that colour... finished all of prison break thats been aired till now... desperately waiting for the next episode!!... y do only stupid serials that i dont watch air 4 times a week!!!... the main reason for my absence is the fact that i took a trip back to my roots... "mera gaon.. mera des!!!"... ok.. sad attempt at humour!!!... good old road trip with the family... almost all my cousins were there and had a blast!!... a 4 day trip which made me realize how much i love road trips!!!... 8 hour journey and loads of fun!!!... no internet.. no television... at times no electricity!!!.. no shopping.. actually no shops!!.. no usual newspaper and awesome food!!!... went for a ride on a camel cart and it turned out to be so much fun... 9 people on one camel cart!!... poor camel!!!... lol.. we all decided to make trips like this a regular feature... im just hoping it materializes!!!... saw ghost rider on 24th... sad movie.. should have gone for music and lyrics instead... but ive seen much worse movies so i guess its ok... and had a blast on my birthday!!!... my friends made me stand on a chair and put ice cream all over my face... but it was fun!!!... i never said i wasnt weird!!!... read the link to my page again in case of misconceptions!!!... have a week's holidays now!!!... mid-sem break!!!... and back to the grind after that... all good things come to an end!!!...