off again!!!

every time i promise myself that im going to be regular with blogging one or more of the following happens..
a) i get writers block.
b) i feel the need to get away from things.
c) i go out of town.
d) im too lazy to type out my thoughts and when i do get in front of the computer im not in the mindset to blog.
e) i stop coming online even to check my email.

in the past 2 months, ive surprisingly encountered all these at once.. spent 3 weeks in the city of joy (Kolkata for the uninitiated) where i hardly even opened my inbox to check my mail.. felt the need to just vanish from the entire 'scene' for a while.. was too lazy to move my ass after i came back for another week or two.. had a farewell party to plan for a friend so got really tied up with that and didnt come online.. and now that i thought things were finally settling down, i just realized that im off again..

my grandparents are taking us all for a cruise to.. wait for it.. ALASKA!!!... just the 3 of us 'kids' and the 2 of them.. everything is all set and i leave tomorrow for another 15 days to the US and 2 days to hong kong.. so the last week was busy with the visa (which incidentally is quite a pain in the ass since they waste your entire day and u have a whole lot of queues to stand in), the bookings, the tickets and the customary shopping for the relatives staying there.. [:)]
i finally get to see snow again!!!... yipppee!!!... and the shopping of course!!!... and i have a ten year multiple entry visa so now i dont need to go stand in those godforsaken queues for another 10 years!!.. HURRAY!!..

anyway.. the champions league final was A-W-E-S-O-M-E!!!.. what an action packed match.. and the Euro was as usual full of surprises!!!.. i never thought spain had it in them.. but i missed the final so im not sure.. [:(]

other than that nothing of consequence really happened except that i passed everything and that too without a single D grade.. im now officially in my final year of engineering.. planning to give CAT and GMAT this year.. lets see what i actually get around to doing.. [:p]

am currently reading The Ultimate Hitchhiker's Guide To The Galaxy by Douglas Adams and its hilarious!!.. something that i would definitely recommend.. halfway through it and saving it up for the loooong flight.. though im pretty sure that i will sleep through most of the 20 hours.. they say its a gift!!.. laziness is in my blood!!..

my mom has been pestering me to pack for 2 days now and she keeps saying that if i leave things for the last minute, ill forget things.. and she's also kinda irritated with my usual reply of 'if i forget to take something, ill buy it from there'.. hehehe.. im going on a holiday.. i dont want all that extra planning and extreme care.. i like to be laid back and just put my feet up and do nothing.. i for one am not of those that require a holiday after they come back from a holiday just to settle in.. and i dont really even mind the long flights because i never get jet-lagged since i can sleep for 20 hours straight.. laziness has its advantages too!!!..

and right after i get back im plunged into the college session.. not really something im looking forward to.. but that has more to do with the fact about having to wake up early than anything else..

and im off again for a fortnight after which i absolutely totally and completely promise to be regular with blogging.. and this is not like the other 100 times ive used this line.. i mean it this time..
i do.. i do.. i do...!!

Here we go again!!!

first the (valid) excuse for disappearing from blogsville for so long.. my room's being renovated and i hardly get time to use the laptop to surf the net.. its almost done so ill have my PC up in no time.. also im heading for placements next month so things r a little hectic..

now coming back to the post.. after taking more than a year off getting over that #@&%$@#, im dating someone..
i wrote this about a month back when i wasnt sure whether i liked this guy or not.. seems like i do.. ;-)

and it starts again..
the constant looking for deliery reports in the cell phone.. the glances in the mirror to check how red u r when u think of them.. the waiting for them to come online for a 5 minute chat on gtalk that usually lasts well over an hour or two.. the furtive looks at the cell phone when ur out with friends to check for missed calls or msgs.. the checking ur email inbox every 2 hours for a new mail from them.. the reading old chats (god bless gtalk!!) that bring a smile to ur face.. the realization how much u miss them even though u explained to urself that u probably shouldn't..
spells T-R-O-U-B-L-E!!..


P.S.- as for GOA, it was rocking!!.. sandy beaches, chilled beer, water sports, partying with friends.. bliss!!..

Im BACK!!!

Im BACK!!!!... had a blast this past month... there were a couple of times i wanted to post but no time to access the net other than checking my email... but that will probably find its way here in the coming days... walked around Rome from one monument to another, saw the Pieta in Vatican, climbed up the Duomo in Florence, got cheesy pictures clicked holding up the Leaning Tower of Pisa, lazed on the beach in Nice, saw the red carpet in Cannes, ate Ben & Jerry's outside the casino in Monte Carlo, saw the change of guards outside the palace of Monaco, rented a paddle boat in Lucerne, went to Jungfrau and finally saw SNOW (yes for the first time... give it a rest already!!), did a beer crawl in Munich and was completely sloshed, ate a lot of gelatos in Venice, did the gondola thing, climbed up the Eiffel Tower, shopped along Champs-Elysees, went to the Louvre, saw the Chateau de Versailles... phew!!!!.... and had a blast in Bombay as well!!!... now now... that shade of green doesnt really suit u.. lol... its been almost 5 days since ive been back and my net hasnt been working... some problem from the stupid service provider... but nothing is raining on my parade... yet!!!... as the onset of another semester looms ahead who knows how long this will last... so here's signing off on a happy note!!... CIAO!!!

Yay!!!

apologies for the absence first... in my defence i had exams!!!... so i finally had my one night stand with books before every exam and that chapter is closed for another 6 months till the next semester!!!.. lol... so anyways i've had a fun fortnight... went out almost every day and still should manage to pass everything...
now i have holidays for 2 months... and im going Backpacking across southern Europe... Rome, Florence, Nice, Munich, Venice, Switzerland and Paris... phew!!!.. im hyper-excited!!!... YIPPEE!!!... and it gets even better... no parents!!!!!... just me and 2 of my cousins... an all girls trip!!!... and we get to rough it out... no 5 star hotels.. no chauffer driven transport... travelling around in buses and staying in hostels... super fun!!!... and the HOT ITALIANS!!!... ooh la la!!... lol...
all i need now are the visas... Schengen and Swiss... and i get to spend a week in Mumbai with cousins as my ticket is from Mumbai to Rome... YAY!!!... less than a fortnight to go... i cant stop grinning from ear-to-ear...
Gelatos, Gondolas, Snow-capped mountains, Fun... here i come!!!!

YAY!!!

so thanks to Lemonade, i sent in my blog to be reviewed by Critique My Blog... this is what they had to say... im so happy today!!!... lol... cheap thrills!!!..

It doesn't surprise me to find that I really enjoyed this blog...New to the blog world, this blogger from Delhi is a 19 year old who has a knack for writing in a style that sounds like conversation. The blogger's personality jumps off the screen and it is clear to see that this blog can become a winner if she decides to continue the blog. The posts are short and the writing is compelling. The format is simple with not a lot of bells and whistles to take away from the story. Young bloggers do a great job at keeping the content fresh. Well done!

and just to prove that im not making this stuff up.. here's the link... if only people could see my face... im all smiles... :)

Damn U!!!!... :)

sometimes i wonder if i would have been better off not knowing u... no more days spent wanting to be with u when i know i cant... no more nights spent tossing and turning wondering if ur with someone else... no more crying for what isn't there anymore... no more furtive glances at the cell phone wondering if u'll call or msg today... no more crossing my fingers as i sign into messenger for just an offline... no more listening to 'I dont want to miss a thing' and not being sure whether to smile or cry... no more feeling that i cant take it anymore... but then there wont be that smile when i hear a song on the radio and it reminds me of u... no twinkle in my eye when out of the blue i remember something u said... no sudden flutter in the heart when i see ur msg or call... no odd sense of peace when i close my eyes and see ur face... nothing... just plain long drawn numbness... without u i wouldn't be the same me... u've taught me so much... about myself, about life, about the world... and if the only way i could be with u is in my heart then so be it... i would rather know u and live with just ur memories than not know u and not know what it is like to be in love... as u once said

TO LOVE IS ALL, TO BE LOVED IN RETURN IS DIVINE!!..

damn u!!!... uve really messed me up!!!.. and i love u for that too!!.. :)

... ULTIMATELY???

*****: what you wanna do in life..ultimately? vague question i know..u cn answer later..

Me: ultimately as in??... give me an example??... like wht do u want to do ultimately

*****: hmm....say..when u are done with all the "cash getting"

Me: i just want to travel arnd the world at my whim and just take off without thinking twice... u know like if i feel like going backpacking in europe i just leave right now with just my passport and nothing else... i can buy wht i need whenever i need it... and i wanna be with someone who feels the same way abt stuff with no planning into stuff and just take off wen the mood gets u... thts my idea of being settled with someone in life... just enjoy each others company and be compatible enough to understand even if i want to go off alone... strange huh??... well i guess thts wht i want... and maybe to buy a beach house in malibu!!!!... and laze in the sun all day!!!... BLISS!!!

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that was the first thing tht came to my mind... and i know tht even though its the first time ive thought abt this, it definitely wont be the last... i would love to travel like that... maybe i should rethink my choice of career... engineering is BORING...

Im BACK!!!

Im back after a hiatus!!!... cant say that im sorry... had a ball these last ten days!!!... Holi was fun!!... and also the fact that i played it on thursday, friday and sunday!!!... came home from college on thursday all silver!!!... then friday i came back home green.. thanx to college friends again!!!... and finally on sunday played holi with cousins.. came back home red/maroon!!... 3 different days... 3 different colours!!! awesome fun though its so tiresome to wash off all that colour... finished all of prison break thats been aired till now... desperately waiting for the next episode!!... y do only stupid serials that i dont watch air 4 times a week!!!... the main reason for my absence is the fact that i took a trip back to my roots... "mera gaon.. mera des!!!"... ok.. sad attempt at humour!!!... good old road trip with the family... almost all my cousins were there and had a blast!!... a 4 day trip which made me realize how much i love road trips!!!... 8 hour journey and loads of fun!!!... no internet.. no television... at times no electricity!!!.. no shopping.. actually no shops!!.. no usual newspaper and awesome food!!!... went for a ride on a camel cart and it turned out to be so much fun... 9 people on one camel cart!!... poor camel!!!... lol.. we all decided to make trips like this a regular feature... im just hoping it materializes!!!... saw ghost rider on 24th... sad movie.. should have gone for music and lyrics instead... but ive seen much worse movies so i guess its ok... and had a blast on my birthday!!!... my friends made me stand on a chair and put ice cream all over my face... but it was fun!!!... i never said i wasnt weird!!!... read the link to my page again in case of misconceptions!!!... have a week's holidays now!!!... mid-sem break!!!... and back to the grind after that... all good things come to an end!!!...

Birthday Blues!!!

My birthday is almost here and people keep asking me what i want as a present... and there's nothing i can come up with... and not just because they ask out of formality(yes!!... people do that... always!!!... even when they don't know when your birthday exactly is!!) but because i don't really want anything materialistic!!!... simple things would mean much more to me... The only thing I would like is a surprise birthday party but that isn't something I can say I want... can I???.... :-P... so here's a list of things i would actually like this year-

• Artificial Flowers - Every year I get real flowers that die in a few days... I'd like something that was different from what everyone else always gets... something i wouldn't have to throw away in a couple of days...

• A Handmade Card - doesn't have to be artistic... just a simple 'Happy Birthday' scribbled on a piece of paper would work better than an Archie's or Hallmark card... its just about the effort...

• CD - I do have all the music I listen to but would be nice if someone took out the time to write a CD for me that includes songs I like/ songs they like/ songs they think I might like/ songs that remind me of them or the other way round... etc.. etc..

• A Surprise visit from someone i don't expect to meet on the day - A surprise is a surprise is a surprise is a....!!!

• A Homemade Cake - Every year they get me a cake(sometimes even 2-3 when people cant figure out what to get) from a fancy 5-star bakery... I would love a homemade cake...

• A Warm Hug - from people I care about and who care about me... not just from anyone!!!

• A Song - just the thought of someone singing for me is awesome...

• A List of things people like about me - Come on... there's gotta be something or you wouldn't have bothered giving me a gift!!!... ;-)

• A Photo Collage - a reminder of the good times we've shared...
  

And I dub thee "Queen of Wishful Thinking".... I have way too many expectations!!... What I really need to get is a LIFE!!!...

Celebrating the Weather

The weather today was just out of the world... no sun and amazing wind throughout the day... and then it rained in the evening!!... i just love when it rains... everything is so fresh and green... makes you want to dance!!.. so after a very very long time today (i am so lazy that its not even funny) i went for a walk in the park with my sister.. just the 2 of us... female bonding!!... lol... she has exams coming up so she needed the break and im always game for going out... yes even if its just to the park... so the 2 of us just walked around and talked about a lot of stuff... music, movies, relatives, guys, friends, future... the usual stuff... shes a little younger so i give her advice sometimes and she likes hearing about my college and friends... just the cold breeze blowing against our faces and being so close to nature was what made it all the more magical... so it was the perfect sunday. i realized that i have tests from tomorrow but even that failed to dampen my spirits today... it doesnt feel like new delhi in february at all... the only thing missing was a long drive down an empty road (now thats wishful thinking... the traffic here is killing!!)...

someone once asked me which one i like better... summer or winter??... i said rain!!... it always matches up to my mood... its just about how i perceive it... if im happy i imagine the little droplets of water dancing with me in joy and when im down in the dumps i feel like it knows my pain and is crying with me... Sad rain(read: when im sad and it rains) always reminds me of 2 things...

1. a quote by Charlie Chaplin that goes like this...

"I love walking in the rain 'cause no one knows im crying"

2. a line from the song November Rain by Guns N Roses...

"Cause nothing lasts forever,
Even cold november rain."

i know its conflicting that while the first reminds me that im upset and hurt, the second has an optimistic take on things... but thats just how it is... I LOVE RAIN!!!... Period.

Celebration means LIFE!!!!

i got this forward and it brought an instant smile to my face.... so i just wanted to share this with everyone... keep smiling!!... :-)

CELEBRATION means......

A winter evening.
Four friends.
One barsaati.
Four glasses of chai.
(OR)

Hundred bucks of gas.
A rusty old bike.
And an open road.
(OR)

Maggi noodles.
A hostel room.
4.25 a.m.
(OR)

3 old friends.
3 separate cities.
3 coffee mugs.
1 Internet messenger.
(OR)

Rain on a hot tin roof.
Pakoras deep-frying.
Neighbours dropping in.
A party.
(OR)

You and mom.
A bottle of coconut oil.
A head massage.
Gossiping about absent family members.

You can spend
Hundreds on birthdays,
Thousands on festivals,
Lakhs on weddings,

but to celebrate
all you have to do is spend your TIME.
Keep in touch with your loved ones ........